Scale report.....

One of my favourite pics for you....

We learn something new everyday; it’s funny what people say to you on the phone… I work at Westpac in a call centre and a guy just called from Fyshwick ACT, and he felt it necessary to tell me it was the Porn Capital of Australia…. I’m not sure what this has to do with Banking but as they say it takes all sorts!!!! 2 funny and hello to anyone that lives there……

Training going well, first scale report and not liking it at all but it had to be done, 65.3kg….. As of today..
I’ve eaten 100% clean for 4 days now I know this doesn’t sound long but I think it’s the hardest part… Once you start and feel better for it and you can see the results it makes it easier to keep going.

I have someone helping me with my prep this year, this will be a nice change as I have always done everything by myself, to have someone with a world of knowledge to help me will be great…. 100% dedication is my attitude, I want this person helping me to know how much I appreciate his help so will give it my all…. Thanks Boss, if you’re reading this!!!

Not a lot else happening in the world of Ursula, I have applied for a new job so waiting to hear back from that, a total change from banking witch will be nice and I also have found somewhere to live.. So this will be good to have a little more stability in my life.. I still everyday miss my old life, my husband, house, dog, cat, work and gym but things change and I have to learn to adapt better to change than I have been of late.

I hear a whisper that there is a new gym opening in Launceston, woop woop and it’s gunna shit ova all the gyms we currently have here at the moment… So that’s a bit exciting, but also a long way off opening…..

Take care train hard, eat well

xx

The Power Of Positive People

No matter how bad things can get, or seem to get the power of positive people around you is amazing, I got a text today from someone very special to me and I reflected what the message read and it really lifted my self esteem... Self esteem comes from within but when you feel like you've lost it, to have someone re in force things you should know about yourself and believe in yourself, makes you feel nice inside....

I have had a great training week the diet has been off track still, but next week the big overhaul starts... The scales are going to become my best friend....

I'm unsure of what comps to set myself for... I have had an offer to be apart of a T.V show that follows 12 bodybuilders over 18 weeks of comp prep.... But to be able to be a part of this I will have to compete in the Brisbane Title in May, this is a realistic goal for me to be able to achieve and be at my best if I put my head down and bum up now....

I also have a friend travelling o-seas in June and I would love to go with him but little steps and little goals for now will be nice, one day at a time.....

Weekend time again, make up trial for my besti's wedding tonight and a walk with friends... Tomorrow gym and lunch with the girls, Sat night girls night BBQ and Sunday gym and cooking meals for the next 2 weeks....

Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend......

I'm going to pick up my hire car in a minute, bout bloody time my insurance pulled their finger out and organised me one....

Take care all.......

xx

Thinking.....

When I had a massage on Sunday I nearly fell off the table as the lady that was massaging me commented that she could help me with my muscles but not with my broken heart…. I had not mentioned to her about anything but it freaked me out… She mentioned she had a lady from America that could help me via hypnosis, she then asked me if I want to let go, I told her I have no option but to move on, her response was you have to want to… This makes me wonder… With everything that has happened why do I still not want to let go…. I’m worth more than to feel like this, I’m not a bad person and deserve to be loved in the same way I love. Maybe it’s a rejection thing to be rejected by someone you would give the world 2 and not get anything in return is sole crushing. The problem is I don’t want to be loved, wanted or needed by anyone else… That’s where self preservation should be kicking in to want more for myself and knowing that there are people out there wanting to give me this makes me angry that I don’t want it, and if I hear one more person say you need more time, I’m going to scream!!! If I could turn my brain off from going over the same shit every day I would.

Leg training went well last night, I thought they would be sorer today than they are but still nice to know I trained… Chest and Bi’s tonight.
I jumped on the scales Monday and it was scary…. I hate scales…. Instead of spurring myself on to loose weight it makes me sad and all I want to do is eat, cause it makes me happy… Mixed up chicki….

Weekend....

I ended up having a bad day Friday, I couldn’t go to work I didn’t talk to anyone and didn’t want to see anyone, lets hope these kind of days go away very soon.
On a brighter note the rest of the weekend was much nicer. I had a great weekend, trained Saturday back and tri’s, went to Hobart with Glenn, stayed at the Grand Chancellor and enjoyed a lovely meal at Hogs Breath Café, if you have ever been there and had one of their famous Rocky Road ice cream’s for dessert… you know just how much I ate, (Thanks Glenn, LOL) then I had no room left for the champagne and chocolate coated strawberries back in the room, but I tried my best and it was beautiful!!!!
We enjoyed a massage Sunday morning then had some breakfast before heading back home, went out for a meal for a friends birthday lastnight… So the weekend was spent in great company but with lots of bad food…. Back into good eating and training today… Staying at a GF house tonight to go over my best friends hen’s night, not sure what were organising for her but it has to be fun, she’s deserves the best night ever, she has been there for me in the last 7 months more than anyone and I can’t return the favour for her but the least I can do is make sure she has the best hen’s night and wedding. So if anyone has any suggestions for hen’s party games let me know… Leg training tonight and some cardio, so I’m guessing the legs will be sore again for almost a week!~!!!


Hope everyone had a great weekend….

'09 Plan Of Attack

2009 Competition Calender

July Saturday 11th
All Female Muscle & Fitness Classic

October Saturday 3rd
Australian Natural Physique Titles

October 15th - 18th
Natural Olympia XII