Something Different

Things I LIKE about being single

1. Only having to clean up after myself
2. Watching what I want on T.V
3. Me being the only one spending MY money
4. Go to bed when I want
5. Go where I want, when I want
6. Meeting new people that I would not normally have met
7. Only cooking one lot of meals
8. Not having to be rude to men because you don't want to have to explain or feel like your doing the wrong thing by your beloved
9. Not having to think for a second person
10. Only having to pay for your own bills
11. Not having to worry about being lied to or hurt by anyone
12. Having the whole bed to myself
13. Doing only my washing
14. Being excited about finding someone to truly love me for me
15. Having no restrictions and not have someone say "I'd rather if you didn't"
16. Spending more time with friends
17. When dieting not having to worry about being crabby
18. Not having to share

Things I miss about NOT being single

1. That daily phone call even though you know you wake up and go to sleep next to them every day
2. Cuddles
3. Kisses
4. Training partner
5. Knowing your someones special someone
6. Cooking meals for them
7. Picking up there clothes
8. Having that person to share anything and everything with
9. Laying on the couch intertwined watching our favourite T.V shows
10. Going to the movies and dinner
11. Singing in the car together
12. Motorbike rides
13. Mind blowing SEX!!!
14. Laughing and just being able to be myself
15. Pet names that are made up for each other
16. Planning or dreaming things for the future
17. That empty feeling that your alone
18. Seeing something shopping that your partner would love and just buying it cause you know he'll enjoy it
19. Having that person tell you everything will be o.k when something goes wrong
20. Cuddles
21. Sick days staying in bed together ALL day
22. Spending time with that person and thinking that nothing else matters
23. Knowing you can do or say anything to someone and they still tell you they love you
24. Having showers together
25. Being supportive of the other persons dreams and ambitions
26. Feeling needed by someone
27. Being loved by someone unconditionally
28. Cuddles
29. That butterfly feeling you get when you look them in the eye
30. Worrying you may never get any of this again
31. Missing that person when there not around like a drug
31. Cuddles
32. Pinching there food when your out for dinner cause they always seem to pick better stuff than you
33. Having to start from scratch AGAIN
33. Oh and Cuddles

xx oo xx

Just the thing I needed... Fun, fun, fun

Hi everyone, I have a fabulous weekend in Melbourne. I went to the Pro Show at the Dallas Brooks Centre.. Saw the big boys battle it out and all I have to say is WOW!!! Kai Greene what a super performer... None better, he is so professional yet fun and entertaining to watch... I went for dinner with a group of friends including P.J Mr Fit2Fat himself and Ellena Tsatsos, who I have competed against before but had never really had a chance to get to know her, she's a great chick also I was lucky enough to meet Donny Henderson Smith and his partner Haley, in the flesh for the first time, there such a beautiful couple!!! I want what they have... LOL

I stayed with my good friend Al White and we had a nice Sunday together and then went for Pizza Night which is a tradition the group have every Sunday night, I was even tempted to take on P.J in an eating comp!!! His belly is so funny, he got up on stage at the Pro Show and I could not stop laughing, he looks like E.T!!! Very cute... I had the best pancakes EVER and I mean EVER at a restaurant in Chappell Street, they had yogurt and blueberry's on them oh my god I cant tell you how good they were... MMMMMMMMMMMM.. Most people go there to shop and I go there to eat!!!

I saw a few people over the weekend that will be competing at the All Female's against me not naming any names but let me tell you I need to pull the finger out and start some serious dieting... This person was looking great, but I know at my best I will look better.... The time has come to stop making excuses, GAME ON BITCHES!!! (In a nice way!!)

I love Melbourne, I'm thinking sometime during the year I may end up moving over there.

All in all I had a fab weekend, thanks to everyone on your thoughts on the You Tube thing, I'm going to start it when I get back from Holidays..... I can't wait I travel to Brisbane on Sunday to stay with my younger brother who lives up there, he got drafted with the Brisbane Lions last year so I haven't seen him since Christmas, then I'll go down to the Gold Coast for about a week then I travel back down to Melb for another 4 days and will go and watch the Melb Title, probably wishing I'de pulled my finger out a long time ago...... Oh well, now is the time and look out!!!! Hope to catch up with any of you that may be in Brisbane, GC or Melb while I'm there... Hope everyone is well xxx

What do you think???

Well I've been considering to put together a weekly You Tube video over the next 16 weeks leading up to the All Females in July, covering my change in physique and some training video's and what I do for cardio and other stuff like posing practice etc... I was thinking not only will this help me stay on track, like I would have to answer to a computer screen every week, as I have no support network at home as I use to, no personal trainer or dietitian to keep me on the right track.. I know what has to be done and know I can do it, it's just a matter of pulling my finger out and having something other than myself to be accountable to.... Also I think it's so interesting some of the ones I have watched on the net of people's transformations... As I have let myself put on a few extra kg's than I would have liked (own fault, no one else to blame) it should be an interesting journey.... So what do you think????

I have had so many thoughts about weather or not I even want to compete again, but I want to prove to myself I can get there again....

I have started reading the Twilight series of books and I'm hooked... I'm on to the second book now!! Even my work mates are shocked, I was outside having lunch reading the other day and a workmate asked if I was alright!! I said yeah why??? They commented that they had never seen me read a book other than a Fitness Magazine in nearly 5 years!!! I laughed and said I was o.k and had found a new thing to do to relax!!!! I cant wait to see the movie now....

No contact with the ex in a long time.... I did send him a text asking him if he thought how strange it was not having any contact with someone for so long that he once loved enough to marry... It just seems so weird to have been in such a committed relationship as marriage then poof seeming not to care or contact or even a hello as if I don't exist... Maybe it's a harder thing to comprehend than him as I did truly adore and love him... Oh well, his choice...

I'm excited about my trip to Melbourne this weekend to watch the Pro Show, sounds like they have got an awesome line up to watch!!! Should give me that boost of motivation needed!! I'm staying with my good friend Al, haven't seen him since his visit to Tassie, it will be nice to spend a few days catching up.... He's also in comp prep mode, but unlike me has the strongest willpower and determination I have ever seen in a human!!! Got to love that!!!

Work is still boring the life out of me... I applied for another job as a coke rep the other day, see if I get a response from these guys.. I have started to walk to work now it's just over 5 km there and then home again, I'm going to do this Tue and Thu and RPM Mon Wed and Fri mornings...

I have been reading many of your blogs but I'm a slack ass, and don't comment on them enough..... Love all your work weather it be about a comp prep, having a general whinge about life or anything else that takes your fancy I love reading and keeping up to date in so many people's lives...

Take care, eat well, train hard and smile lots xxx